Come fly the friendly skies....

or shall i say burn in a fiery inferno?

one more thing you may have not known about me is that i have a fear of flying.  well, it is not so much as a fear of flying as a fear of dying and crashing.  

i really think i would feel better if i was in the cockpit and flying the plane (not that the other passengers wouldn't be freaked out, but who cares about them)  so perhaps it is really a loss of control that i dont like.  here i am all high up in the sky with a huge chance of falling and i am trusting some pilot who may or may not have been in the captain's lounge boozing it up with the copilot or snorting lines off some flight attendant.  so yeah, you get what i am saying.  hopefully.

people have this notion that flying in an airplane is safer than driving blah, blah, blah. i dont care. there arent as many planes in the sky as there are cars on the road and the chance of a pilot making a mistake or equipment failing can still be huge.  

i wouldn't say that i am an absolute freak over it, but before i fly i do worry about it a few days before the flight takes place and i worry about it while i am at my destination occasionally until i am finally back and safe at home.  dont get me wrong though, i love to travel and if i had the opportunity to do it even more often than i already do (thereby creating more of a chance of an accident) i totally would.

ryan had a doctors appt. last week so i invited myself along to ask if there is something that i can take for our trip today so that i dont have a panic attack and freak out the people sitting near me.  i have  a tendency when we are taking off and landing to tense up and sometimes tear up or even cry and usually whisper to ryan that we are probably going to die.  and dont even get me started about turbulence or needing to go to the restroom.

anyway, i asked dr. f and he told me that he would gladly give me something.  of course i had to remind him to make sure that it isn't too strong in case i need to operate safety equipment and get myself to safety.  i will get help for the others too, once i my needs have been met.

i picked up my prescription (well Ryan did), but then i worried it wouldnt be strong enough so i had a prescription of valium filled too just in case.  i dont even know if i want to take any of it.  you cant drink and i think it is just going to make me sleepy and groggy.  i guess i will stop being such a control freak and just leave it to chance.

in the meantime, keep your fingers crossed that i safely land in vegas tonight.  i am sure there will be plenty to gab about when i am back from my vacation in a few days...

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spring break 09

well, spring break only has a few more days left. i ended up getting a cold on sunday so i was camped out in bed for most of monday and some of tuesday. it did not keep me from celebrating saint patty's on 6th for south by southwest...

today as ryan and i were driving down south congress heading home after a long day of running errands and hanging out it was amazing to see all the people in town for this huge festival. the weather has been perfect and a lot of great bands have been playing for free. it sucks that i haven't felt 100% but i am lucky to live in such a cool city.

i haven't gotten a chance to catch any of the film festival, but i heard Bruno (sacha baron cohen) was being crazy in the streets and that seth rogen was spotted out by a show i was at. too bad i missed him. i could have geekily told him that his comedy is amazing.

anyway, spring break is coming to an end and it has been awesome. i can't believe that in a few days i am going to las vegas. way to round out the month of march.

hallefreakinlujah…

Spring Break has finally arrived!

I don't know who looks forward to it more...the students or the teachers!

Seriously if next week weren't Spring Break I don't think I would show up to work.  It is the time of year where stress is at an all time high.

Too bad the weather is crappy.  The Texas heat will soon arrive.  For now I am going to cozy up to our fireplace and watch some brain deteriorating television.

I am so excited that SXSW is next week and I hope the shuttle launch finally happens this Sunday.

i only mildly want to strangle him sometimes...

today is my wedding anniversary. wow. i can't believe it has already been four years. holy crap where has the time gone?

i really love my husband. he is one of the funniest people i have ever met. he is also very sweet and romantic (today he brought me lunch and had flowers delivered).

he is the other half of my heart. here's to four more!

Things probably not worth knowing...

Here is infamous 25 random things about me. I personally thought the Time article was funny, but not in the way the reporter intended. Some people just take themselves too seriously.

1. I get really grossed out if people have food or drinks in the bathroom. It makes me want to vomit.

2. You may have already known this, but I am a nervous talker.

3. Eyeballs are disgusting. I can't even get my eyes checked because I am too freaked out by an eye doctor. The only way I know I have 20/20 vision (well used to anyway) is from the driver's license test they give you and from when I was in elementary school. Even a diagram or a picture of an eyeball will totally freak me out. Please don't send me any to be funny. Please.

4. Sometimes I think my dogs were reincarnated from humans. If one of my dog's wink at me I have to wink back. You know, just in case they are trying to send me a message or something. It is also a reason I don't let them watch me do anything too embarrassing.

5. I love cheese. I wish I could give up dairy since there are a lot of people who are convinced it is a government conspiracy to keep us sick. But you will have to pull the cheese out of my cold dead hands.

6. I have a pelvic kidney.

7. I have always wanted to be an astronaut. The solar system, distant galaxies, and the vacuum of space amaze me. I am still considering the teacher in space program. If I decide not to have children, I will certainly apply.

8. I have a tendency to hold grudges. I hate that about myself. I wish I could just get over it. You may think I forgot or forgave. I didn't.

9. I cannot watch a movie in black and white. It will not hold my attention. I am too distracted wondering what colors their clothes were, etc. Technicolor is very important to me. I love saturated color. Pinks, reds, yellow, purple, aqua, etc. Life is too short for boring colors. Heaven forbid I become colorblind and have to go to the eye doctor.

10. I am unsure about my religious beliefs. I feel very torn about how I feel. Maybe it is a phase but I am scared of choosing one or the other. I don't know what you are supposed to do when you aren't sure what you believe. Especially when you used to know.

11. One of the reasons I love working with children is because they are so funny. I just don't like that there usually isn't another adult in the room to share the humor with. I wish I had the time to write down some of the hilarious things they tell me. It would be a book in no time.

12. I take pride in teaching children how to read. Even when I am frustrated with a struggling reader, I tell myself to keep trying and look for new ways. I am a leaving a legacy that will last their whole lives. You may forget how to ride a bicycle, but it is unlikely that you will ever forget how to read.

13. If I am nervous or grossed out my toes will go numb. It is the weirdest sensation.

14. I live in fear of a tragic accident or imminent death (cancer, murder, brain tumor, blood clot, plane accident) and sometimes it can be mentally crippling. I hate feeling like something is wrong with me. This is funny because people tell me I seem so self confident.

15. I don't really like Texas. I am over the whole cowboy gun toting tumbleweed vision that everyone else in America has of people who live here. I do not have a Texas accent and even I can't really take people seriously who do. I don't say yall unless I am making fun of Britney Spears and I don't have problems enunciating. I recently was at a family function where people were actually discussing Texas being its own country. Oh yeah, I am so sure.

16. I love to sing at the top of my lungs when the situation presents itself. I am quite talented at making an ass of myself at karaoke.

17. Once I had an ovarian cyst and I was so freaked out that it would have hair or teeth or a finger I barely slept until it was finally removed. I just knew it was my evil twin. Thankfully, it was just a normal fluid filled cyst. When I woke up from surgery my Mom and Ryan said it was the first question I asked.***

18. I love bleach. Once I even bleached my big toe because I had a toe fungus from my swim class in college. The bleach made it go away quickly. I have a lot of funny pictures with my toe if you ever want to see it. Despite my embarrassment and trauma from the whole experience, I would still show anyone and everyone. It didn't look gross, just white. That bleach is probably going to cause the cancer I am so afraid of.

19. I can't paint my fingernails. Toenails are a must, but polish on my hands make me feel like they're dirty. I think it looks cute, and I want to paint them or have a manicure, but the polish won't last on me for more than a day, if even that -- I will end up taking it off in a fit of thinking my nails are dirty.

20. I love Austin. It is the least Texas-y that people can imagine. There are more gays and liberals here than all of Texas combined. (every girl needs a fairy to keep her grounded) And heaven forbid you tear down a tree or an old structure, the hippies will freak out. At least this tends to scare off the more conservative so they avoid Austin. When I moved here my Dad asked me why I wanted to live around weirdos.

21. I want a baby but I worry about the state of things with our Earth and our economy. Most of all I worry about losing a part of myself in being someone else's mother (I know it is selfish and this is hard for me to admit).

22. I loved high school. If I could go back and relive it, I definitely would.

23. I really love being up really late at night. Two, three, or four am is my most creative and productive time. I just can't do it much these days with my schedule. Thankfully summer is just around the corner.

24. Getting old really makes me nervous. I hate having a birthday for the sole reason of turning another year older. Thankfully I get to to stuff the pain away with cupcakes and presents.

25. I am incredibly neurotic. I am a serial list maker and my planner/calendar must be updated pretty much always (which reminds me...). I even keep my planner from previous years. For instance, I could tell you what I was doing on January 19, 2007. I went to a doctor's appt. at 9:30am, got my car inspected, went to class, went to the mall, and got paid. I don't really ever get lazy with updating it except for around the very end of December, but only because I am prepping the new calendar for the upcoming year.

And there it is. My list is complete. I would tag some of you, but I don't want to piss off anyone. If you want to do it, you should. It was surprisingly harder than I expected and I love reading other people's lists.

***these things actually exist: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dermoid_cyst

Keep your panties on...

I am going to post the 25 things this afternoon. I forgot to update the file on my flash drive so I have half here and half at home. I hope it is worth the anticipation, Ryan.

you can't stop me motherf***er cause im on a boat!

oh my goodness, i love the lonely island boys. ryan and i became obsessed with them a while back and their latest is the best ever.

if you haven't already seen this, you absolutely need to....

andy, jorma, and akiva are taking over!

not safe for children or work (obscene language)

its going to be a short weekend.

i finally succumbed and got hooked on facebook. i was immediately bombarded with high school ex-friends who seem to be doing well. i still dont understand why it makes me post in third person (crystal hates that) and the concept of writing on someone's wall or hiding something on their page or being poked.

in other news i started my list of 25 things you never wanted to know about me but now you have to. i will post it on sunday because i am too lazy to get my flash drive out to send it now. i typed it at work. it is kind of embarrassing all the things that i am divulging publicly. oh well i really never have been a modest kind of girl.

wishing everyone a relaxing weekend.

facebook

i have been getting harassed lately to start a facebook account.  i have a myspace, but i dont use it much except to find out juice on old friends and stay in contact with bands that i like so i know when they are touring.

it seems like everywhere i am these days people are asking me if i am on it.  i finally gave in and set up an account.  to be honest, it is kind of confusing at first.

i started it last night while watching lost so i was a bit occupied. i am going to work on finishing the setup today. i am sure i will figure it out, right?  i can't be that much of an idiot.  

jeez i am getting lazy with this.

okay i just had a whole post ready and by the miracle of my inability to control my dogs and right hand i deleted it.

ugh.

just so you know it was really clever and witty but now it is gone. lost forever in my computer.

this past weekend my best friend got engaged. it wasn't much of a surprise. she seems happy and that is all that matters.

today was the taks test. i am grateful to not be teaching a taks grade this year. i see the need for standardized testing, but i think it is implemented incorrectly. i have always had a lifelong dream of being a lawmaker so people that determine things that occur daily in classrooms are no longer decided by old men who havent seen the inside of an elementary classroom in over 50+ years.

this weekend we are going to a cheer competition to support my 16 year old niece. my sister is very involved with my niece's competitive cheerleading. it is insane, some of these people. i swear if if the cheer mom's wave any of their noisemakers in my face someone is going to get stabbed. nevertheless, the competition should make for good blogging material.

ps. i dont want to jinx it...but the dizzy feeling has subsided. turns out it may have been the flonase i just started. i googled the symptoms i was having (doctoring myself thank you) and it seems like a lot of other people have felt anxiety and dizzy from flonase. just one of those things i guess. i wont be taking it anymore. i have three bottles of it though because my mother-in-law bought them through pharmacy mail order. too bad people would probably be creeped out if i offered it on craigslist. i mean i am not surfing craigslist for pharmaceuticals.

this post is really random.

xxoo